Pill popping homo. eeow!

And no not exactasy!

So I went to my monthly review with my doctor to discuss the progress of the Anti-Depressants. So far I dont think my depression has improved for the better. I was fine in november I didn't have a problem with the side effects ( when I first started pill popping) but it lasted briefly, and I'll start feeling down again. Oy, the fundamentals of depression, how I love it so. But since it snowed it has gotten worse! WTF?! But whatthefuckever. So after answering a few questions my doctor should have asked" "Do I have a eating disorder?"


Sadly, yes I do binge eat. (long story, which is too sad) so with that said I can no longer take bupropion (Good Riddance!) So we went back and forth with opinions -- He suggested, I shot down. Until he suggested a new anti-depressant

Theres a few CONS:

1. Decreases sexual ability
2. Dry Mouth
3. Trouble Sleeping
4. Vomiting
5. Diarrhea

Get.The.Fuck.Out.Of.Here.

*wallslides with viagra and toilet tissue*

This is a tragedy because I like to masterbate often in my room and at will! And the trouble sleeping, vomiting and Diarrhea?! I better be one jolly ass faggot or there will be hell to pay! The only Pro is the weight loss and loss of appetite so I can shed some fat! Luckily the doctor adds that he can give me another perscription to make sure that my Sexual Libido stays the same. But I guess I can deal.


After eating mother's mozzerella sticks (never again) I took the pill. and chilled out.
All I can say is I felt fucking wierd. and my face went fucking numb!

YES I said it My face went numb and I freaked out (silently) and tried to sleep.

I woke up three different times to get something to drink and to pee and I checked my face in the mirror to make sure my face wasn't deforming and shit

It wasn't. *sigh of relief* so hours later I wake up feeling drowzy as all get out and wondering what pills did Dr. Glover perscribe so far I dont like it! Not one fucking iota!

But this was day one, it takes a few weeks for the meds to take effect--for the good that is.


While you're at it, subscribe to my YouTube Channel where I will be planning to do a season of ACD (Acynicsdream) I'm hoping to premire around late January- Early February.


That is all.

-Charles

Black, Gay and...Airborne?

Ok, for some who have been following me on twitter, know that I've went to chicago for thanksgiving, on the least favorite method of transportation:

Airplane. Yes I went aganist what I felt was appropiate but it was a matter of safety verus price. I don't like the idea of flying for two reasons:

1. I was cursed with my mother's fear of heights.
2. Does 9/11 ring a bell?

Exactly.

So picture my reaction when my mentor tells me to fly. We went back and forth. and I gave in. I thought I was gonna be like Ms. Franklin,

Even though she would have to buy three seats.

and never step foot on a plane. and stick to GROUND transportation Car,Train,Bus. But alas I figured " I might as well get it out of the way" but mind you it was either "spend two days on a train or spend two HOURS and fifty minutes on a plane. Clearly, I had to take a plane.

So after buying the tickets I forgot all about it. celebrated halloween, (what a fucking disaster.)

and I'll say around two weeks prior to thanksgiving Southwest Airlines sent me a email reminding me of the flight. Fast Foward to Thanksgiving day I'm showering getting ready to go and have a good idea how I'm gonna get there. I would take the B15 to JFK. and take the AirTran to Jamaica Station then hop on the E to Jackson Heights and take the bus to LGA.

Easy. Complicated. But quick.

I finally got to LGA around 2:40 And breezed through security. Come to find out that my flight is delayed!

WHAT.THE.FUCK?!

But I dont sweat it. I made it. ON TIME. So I chill out and relax. till my flight comes.

Chile when that Big ass plane came. I wanted to hop on my broomstick and spend my thanksgiving with X.D. and Assante. acting a fool. But after spending $200 dollars I better get on that plane and get it over it.

Pro: The plane wasn't even crowded.

Con: When that plane started to lift off and turn. Motha was SPOOKED.

I never seen NYC from so high. and I almost lost it. But always the professional I dont make a scene and chill out watching movies on my laptop.

But I made it Chicago. without a problem.

The trip back? Another story.

~1